Whenever we sin, we always ask God, “Oh where were You when i needed You?”
Well the answer is, His just beside you.
When we to sin, we find ourselves further to God as we build a wall around ourselves, not allowing God to enter. God has given us conscience when he created us, and because of Adam and Eve, we feel afraid.”I heard you in the garden, and i was afraid because i was naked, so I hid”. This was what Adam told God after he ate the fruit from the tree of knowledge. We are afraid that our sins would be exposed to everyone, so we try to cover up. But the more we cover up, the more these sins will pile up until one day, the whole pile would just collapse. Doesn’t God know what we have done? He knew what Adam had done did he went to the garden of Eden to find him. Why do we need to build a wall to hide our sins from him.
I tend to forget God when I am sining because I know that i need to stop what I am doing and walk in the light. We give in the our needs of the flesh very easily and we don’t want to stop because we enjoy it. Living by truth is really a difficult thing to do, giving up worldly pleasures to be closer to God. Its either God or sin, and i tend to choose the latter. I feel like a hypocrite, I do not follow what i preach. I am filled with remorse after I sin and tell myself I want nothing to do with this sin anymore. And on the next day, i commit the same mistake, how much more sad can it get?
My Lord my God, please carry me through this difficult period. With my upcoming promos, i can feel my stress level building up and can feel myself more vulnerable to Satan’s attacks. Let me break down the wall that i have created between us.Please continue to protect me from myself, the one that sins without thinking. Let me have God’s word wherever i go so that i can fight back! Forgive me when i sin for i am only a mere human, please erase this guilt and condemnation from my mind. Thank you Lord. In Jesus Christ most wonderful and holy name i pray. Amen.
